Alienation

So yes, I'm home.. slightly alienated form my traditional community and wondering where I can go to make this less offensive to the people around me, but for now art and things that are comfortable around me take off the load. Waterpolo will start soon so then I'll have something to direct the occasional frustrations into. Haha this all sound terribly upsetting but really it isn't all that bad! I guess they call it adjusting! It's just a different routine, people around you that expect to know what you are up to and scrutinise your every move and always want to talk, compared to roommates who are around for silent comfort and provinde a moving image from the corner of your eye to let you know you have some common souls around you and that when you all feel like it you can join in with for some interesting conversations or activities, but who can also just let you be, and usually sense that better then, well, your parents.
Also I miss my coffeeshop on the corner of the road, and the weather. F! it's cold!

So I've seen some friends, done some art, left the chaos in my room because I kinda want to empty my life out of there.. there is this one issue I have with my animals.. you know those furry, fluffy, cuddly ones? Well I have quite a big collection and I was waiting for me to grow out of them but I just feel bad sticking them head down into a plastic bag and storing them in our attic, or worse, throwing them out. But I'll get to throwing the rest out.. everything except for my art stuff.. because seriously, what do you really need... and then when I move into the room -that I'm gonna find asap- all I need to bring is that and a really big piece of wallpaper ;)

Today in a spare moment driving home from Eindhoven visiting with friends and after coffee with my grandparents, I realised I could hear myself think... havn't done that in a while.. you know when you just go from one thing into the other for a while and then all of a sudden find there is nothing... very nice. Wanna know what I was thinking about?
Music. (I know, not as intellectual as some of you might think me to be but,)
I just bought one of those things "not apple" that make your radio into your Ipod and I have so much music that comes by though random generation that I kinda missed tha days when you bought a new cd and just played it 100.000 times to hear that one or two songs and learn to appreciate the others. Now there are so many of those "one songs" that you get to listen to that you kinda forget about the rest. So now I'm listening to The Cloud Room, very determined to hear it all, really hear it, text and music... it feels good. an there is more than one song on there.
Have finished some art, had left some sitting since I was home before worlds and decided it was a good idea to take all my art stuff home (never again, it nearly did me in!), and some experimentation with ink on newspaper trying to draw mental disorders...

Opened a new gallery.. still getting used to it, but it has some advantages over the other two so I think I'll pull out of those and stick to this one untill one day I'll make my own and sell art! I'll put this one on my blog as a link soon but for now you can look here: http://ataratis.deviantart.com/

Music: Sunlight Song, The Cloud Room
Quote:"Human beings are the only creatures that allow their children to come back home." -Bill Cosby